I stumble, befuddled and bleary-eyed, from bed, unsure of the time or even, in those first semi-conscious moments, what day it is.
I rummage through the pile of discarded garments on the floor, selecting the least wrinkled, the least malodorous, and contentedly throw it on. I know I'll probably be in pyjamas all day anyway.
In the kitchen I manage to rustle up a breakfast of sorts: coffee - the stronger the better - cold left-over pizza and some squares of chocolate. There will be no time for cooking today, even if I could find the inclination, which I don't.
The detritus of the previous night's activities is everywhere; heaps of unwashed dishes and a room in happy disarray, that gives me a warm, smiley feeling to behold. This is a life well-lived.
It feels full, frequently overwhelming, full of mistakes and lessons learned without a manual, trial-and-error-on-the-fly-we're-all-still-smiling-and-no-one-got-hurt. The heady rush of daily developments and discoveries. Each moment a study in newness and magnificence. Blissful, and awash with messy, limitless possibility. Every day an adventure.
If infertility is surprisingly like being a physicist, I had no inkling of how much these first steps into parenthood would - oddly - resemble my earliest university days.
I rummage through the pile of discarded garments on the floor, selecting the least wrinkled, the least malodorous, and contentedly throw it on. I know I'll probably be in pyjamas all day anyway.
In the kitchen I manage to rustle up a breakfast of sorts: coffee - the stronger the better - cold left-over pizza and some squares of chocolate. There will be no time for cooking today, even if I could find the inclination, which I don't.
The detritus of the previous night's activities is everywhere; heaps of unwashed dishes and a room in happy disarray, that gives me a warm, smiley feeling to behold. This is a life well-lived.
It feels full, frequently overwhelming, full of mistakes and lessons learned without a manual, trial-and-error-on-the-fly-we're-all-still-smiling-and-no-one-got-hurt. The heady rush of daily developments and discoveries. Each moment a study in newness and magnificence. Blissful, and awash with messy, limitless possibility. Every day an adventure.
If infertility is surprisingly like being a physicist, I had no inkling of how much these first steps into parenthood would - oddly - resemble my earliest university days.
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| The gorgeous cause of all the leftover-eating, dirty-laundry-wearing | , mess-making adventure. |
She is soooo beautiful!!! And she looks so happy in this picture. Oh, this makes me smile.
ReplyDeleteEnjoy the mess :)
What a stunningly beautiful child!! I love this picture. She has such a peaceful look, I just want to scoop her up and snuggle her!
ReplyDeleteawww what a cutie with her little tuft of hair!
ReplyDeleteGreat photo - what a sweetie!
ReplyDeleteI love this: "trial-and-error-on-the-fly-we're-all-still-smiling-and-no-one-got-hurt". So true.
Sadie, she is soooo cute! And every word of this is so true.
ReplyDeleteLove her hair and your college days comparison! Right on!
ReplyDeleteGorgeous girl!! Hang in there, mama!
ReplyDeleteWhat a sweet little pumpkin! Sounds like you are embracing the ridiculous, glorious madness. I'm so glad. x
ReplyDeleteShe is adorable! I will say though, I still am in the we're-all-still-smiling-no-one-got-hurt phase around our house! It's been that way for other three years. :)
ReplyDeleteOh, she is breathtaking. Thank you so much for sharing her with us.
ReplyDeleteEeee! She is the cutest. I want to smooch those sweet cheeks! Thank you for sharing with her fans!
ReplyDeleteShe is adorable and delightful and I am so thankful that things are starting to normalize over there!
ReplyDeleteOh, my gosh, what a cutie! I also love that Winnie the Pooh onesie.
ReplyDeleteOh, Sadie, she's gorgeous!
ReplyDeleteShe is so cute :)
ReplyDeleteSuch a cutie!
ReplyDeleteSweet face! !! Awww she's absolutely beautiful!
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful, sweet little girl! She looks so strong and bright eyed! Awwww, thanks for this glimpse into your life Sadie!
ReplyDeleteShe is completely adorable!
ReplyDeleteAlso, seeing that cute Winnie-the-Pooh onesie reminds me of the wonderful audiobooks about said bear in German, translated and read by Harry Rowohlt. My parents discovered them when we were teenagers, and our entire family loves them. Give them a try if this could be your sort of thing at all.
What a treat to see this picture of of Little Miss Amazing. Thank you so much for sharing- she looks wonderful, happy and so happy to see her thriving.
ReplyDeleteHow lovely. A life well lived indeed. xo
ReplyDeleteI was thinking of you today so thought I would check in. What a beauty! Thanks for sharing her with us. :-)
ReplyDeleteAh, thanks for stopping by Carrie! How are the boys?!
DeleteWow, she is absolutely adorable!!! Just beautiful... And so vibrant! I hope, hope, hope she continues to thrive and all her troubles remain in the back mirror.
ReplyDeleteI hadn't checked your blog since it was private. It made my day today to see your most recent updates! So, so happy for you all!
Love,
Mira
Thank you Mira! We hope so too. But as you can see, she really is a little firecracker (I love the way her eyes sparkle in this pic), and we think that can't help but stand her in good stead for whatever's ahead. Your love and support are so appreciated.
DeleteI said this before but it bears repeating; holy squishy deliciousness!! She's a beautiful girl ;)
ReplyDeleteI'm thrilled that you found your way here, Carole! Your support and uplifting words have meant so much in the last awful months. Thanks for abiding with us. Love to you.
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